"like a boss"

what does that even mean?
why do people insist on being ridiculous
and saying ridiculous phrases like this.
"that's dope."
"mad nasty"
"like a boss!"
i don't understand.

anywayyy
and this is the part of life i like to call: procrastinating.

it sucks that i've done so much this weekend but it's still not enough.
that i've felt soo good about myself, but it still doesn't matter.
so i'm going to go read the scarlet letter.
and then tomorrow i'll be here stressing about a paper that i have to write.
and stressing about how i should've done it today.
but i honestly didn't have a whole bunch of time to get much accomplished.
i'm glad i did everything that i needed too yestarday.
no stress today.
double stress tomorrow.

so i got my part in the play.
i'm a grandmother... obviously.
and so i have to be made up like a grandmother
but that means that i can't be in any other parts of the play
because that would look weird.
which also means i can't have the solo that i've been dieing for.
and legit sing every single day.
and it's upsetting.
but i'll get over it.
obviously... it's not a big deal.
even though it's my last year in the play.
whatever.
no big deal.

we currently have 3 bags of apples in my kitchen.
none of which i got.
and i really wanted to go apple picking.
but it's a little late now.
also, i want to go on the haunted hayride at charmingfare.
but that won't happen either.
because people other people don't have time.

this weekend's halloween.
and i still don't have my costume together.
and i need to ask meg for her beard, haha.

my mom asked me if she could read my blog.
i said "uhh, it depends."
i don't know if i should let her.
i mean, i can't stop her.
at least she had the decency to ask
that was nice.
but she's a nice person so it makes sense.

moral of the story: i need to go read. when i would rather be reading a book for myself where i don't have to take notes and answer questions about it. whatever. you can't always get what you want.