i just wanted to say...

and this is the part of life i like to call: saying things that need to be said to certain people.

1. i just wanted to say that i love you.
and even on those days where you feel like no one's there and understands,
i'm there. i understand.
because i've been there.
often.
and don't worry, because there's always tomorrow.
keep moving forward.
and remember that it gets better.

2. in your attempt to not hurt me, you did.
and it's not so much your fault as it is mine.
and i'll try to just stay away from this subject as much as possible after this.
there's just a few last things to be said.
i've liked you longer than you know.
longer than a lot of people know.
so this is hard for me because i've grown accustomed to this feeling.
but now i'll just have to recreate a different feeling.
one from a last year.
one that was still nice. it just wasn't what i wanted.
i'm ok with how this worked out though.
i'm ok with not being everything i wanted to be.
and it'll take me a month or two... but i'll get over this.
i'll get over this thought; this reoccurring theme.
it'll happen.

3. i miss you so much. and i don't even know what there is to miss.
i really look up to you for everything you are.
i regret not getting to know you earlier in the year.
i also regret not talking to you every chance i get.
come back <333

i think that's good for today.
i'll do other things like this.
other "shout outs" to people.
anonymously of course... haha

moral of the story: here i am, and i stand so tall.