who am i kidding?

i'm not going to pretend anymore.

truthfully, i'm not a huge religious person.
i want to be, but i'm not.
and i'm working on it.
and hopefully wilderness camp will help me

i just read all of these blogs and hear all of these speakers.
and i genuinely want that.
but it'll take time.
and i'm sorry i didn't acknowledge that before

i just read my horoscope right now
and it said people were going to visit me tomorrow
and take me out for some "overdue fun"
i sure hope so (:


i've also been thinking about how different my life would be with two older sisters
today, my brothers and i played frisbee for 2 hours. it was awesome (: (or as we would say... diseased (: )
i love them a lot.
but sisters would be interesting
there would be clothes-sharing
and hair and makeup-doing.
and my house would be different.
and just everything really

so this has been a little bit better than me last post?
oh, and i would like to add that random formspring hate hasn't happened for like 2 days.
that's an improvement, right?
maybe people are affected(effected?) by this.

OH! speaking of!
if you have read this post, or any of my posts... can you let me know?
i'm just curious as to how many people read this.
thank you guys (: