(:

just thought i'd let you all know...
today was a good day (:
and i'm happy. the happiest i've been in a little while
:D

and i'm going to Maine tomorrow. so please text/call errday (:

moral of the story: life is good (:
smiley face count: 4

because these things will change

can you feel it now?
these walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
it's a revolution
the time will come when we will finally win.

two years ago in decemeber, life was good.
(and taylor swift came out with a new album and i knew every word to every song... haha)
and then a whole bunch of drama happened.
and my best friends weren't friends with eachother anymore.
that was tough on me.
i always get myself in the middle of things.
and that needs to stop.

so anyway, maggie's birthday is tomorrow.
and we've known eachother since we were 3.
i never thought that things would change... but maybe we just have a pattern that we go by.
i mean, we weren't best friends ALL of those years.
we broke apart in like 3rd grade. and reunited in 6th. so maybe we take three year breaks? i hope not.

what else...
so my "boss" from wilderness camp asked me to babysit a family for like the rest of the summer.
i'm so honored that he recognized my dedication to the kids. (not that i needed to be recognized. i love being a counselor there)
i really would love to. but i realized that i really am not available for the rest of the month. it's crazy.


so anyway, the moral of the story is:
2 years ago is when things started to not be fantastic all the time, maggie turns 15 tomorrow, and i have to turn down a family that needs my help.

...yeah.

construction

so i changed my blog layout. again. haha
and i don't like the blog archive thing. because my titles are usually quite long.
but i'll try to shorten them so that they fit in the box.

and yeah, not that it wasn't already obvious, but i thought i would write about it.
ok, that's about it.

moral of the story: sometimes i point out the obvious...

and in this crazy life.
and through these crazy time
it's you, it's you.
you make me sing
you're every line
you're every word.
you're everything.

moral of the story: sometimes i listen to sappy songs.

that girl is so dangerous.

so this is a dangerous time to blog.
i'm at a breaking point.
i don't know why i can't just be happy for one whole day when i'm by myself.

everything was going so well too.
and then i got frustrated.
and then i got angry.
and then i boiled over.
when will i just run out of tears?
when will i learn to just be happy with myself?

writing this actually calmed me down.
how is it so easy to express myself through writing, but i can't voice my feelings?
how is it so easy for me to fake happiness?
why do i have to fake happiness?
so many unanswered questions.

moral of the story: sometimes i have rough days.