whenever you need me... i'll be there

when the world comes crashing down, i'll be there. don't even question it.
if you ever have a problem, i'll be there.
i may not always help you feel better, but if you need to vent... i'm here. always.

as i've mentioned before, i have a lot of work to do on myself.
i'm not the person i wish i could be.
whether i achieve this goal or not will be solely my responsibility.
but if someone were there for me like i am for anyone else, that would be great.

in all honesty, i don't know if i'm anyone GO TO person. maybe i'm second or third... but never number one. i'm ok with that.

but here's the thing... with all the seconds and thirds, who is my number one?


random day in the life of someone else time:
so i'm going ice skating on friday with tracey and andy i guess?
a.w.k.w.a.r.d. to the 10th power.
i really don't want to be wrapped up in ANOTHER messy love triangle.

get this.
I'M DONE BEING THE MIDDLE PERSON.
done.
and this is official business here.

i'm done living my life through other people.


i feel like i don't know who i am half of the time.
we've talked about this... and i know i told you that i do know who i am. but i was lieing.
(sorry i always talk to a mysterious person. i guess it's just for me to know?)
and i guess i try to be strong for you... because you need a little more boost than the rest of us.


anyone want to be the pop to my tart?