maybe a lot of the time it's not people coming to me with problems but me looking to fix "broken" people.
but not everyone's broken!

maybe i need to stop thinking about how often i deal with problems that aren't my own.

literally school is the most nauseating thing in the world right now.
i can't picture myself sitting in a classroom listening to a lecture that i don't understand. or having to write a paper on rebirth symbolism in moby dick. i thought we finished that book...
actually, i'm really glad she gave the "hawaiians" and extension on that paper.
all i want to do really is go to chem and talk to doc about marcell the shell with shoes on... because doc is the cutest.

tomorrow will be good... and productive.

i just really want my room to be clean and not have to put in the work...

i just want all of this to stop.

"I'm tired of carrying around the weight of the world. I'm just going to lay it down now" -May, Secret Life of Bees.
i mean, this was May's suicide note... but i can relate to these words.

in all honesty, if i didn't listen to anyone else's problems, i wouldn't have any problems in my life. everything's going pretty alright for me personally... i'm just tired of carrying around the weight of the world. i'm tired of being that girl. i told my mom that today and she said "so don't be." but i don't know how to just stop caring about everyone else. and i can't give up on these people that need my help.

"but sometimes i'm scared right out of my mind, and sometimes i just get angry
because i've been let down by the people that i love
but i will not let down the people who love me" -paul baribeau, never get to know.

ha, what's us history?

hawaii was beautiful. i'm so sad to be back.

i'm currently so tired.

and not just physically. i'm emotionally tired.

basically, in hawaii everyone was like "hey abby, i'm going to tell you everything that's ever been wrong in my life now and you're going to have to carry this with you. sound good? okay so this and this and this happened. what do you think of that?"

there's only so much i can take...

i'm not a doctor... i'm happy to sit with you and listen and help.

i'm glad you trust me with this information.

but... for once i'd like to enjoy myself instead of worrying about EVERYONE else.

...i'm such a mom.

"you'd be good together. he needs someone like you."

...let's just go repeat history...